It is a big fat wow to me that in two hours i will be in begining my 28th year of life. WOW! First of all this year has been horrible, this month has been hell and these last few days have been more than a challenge and felt like a death sentence. I can remember bad birthday's in the past but really this one takes the cake. Or actually lack there of on the cake factor. ha ha ha The kids and i are going to make a orange upside down cake tomorrow - yum!
28 years, 28 years, 28 years - 8 years of marriage, 3 kids, lots of moves, new jobs, and on and on and here i sit friendless, pissed at my husband and he is for whatever reason having 'issues' with me, no plans for my birthday, i have no life, no money that is of my own earning, i cant believe in 28 years this is where i am. I really need to get a grip. Every day is another day of my life gone. Tick Tock Tick Tock....
Happy Birthday to me! blah!
2 comments:
Happy Birthday!! Hope 28 goes better for you than 27 did!
Oh my, I wish I would have read this sooner. First off 28 is a wonderful age. Why? Hell I don't know. It just is. It's better then 27 or 26. Second, I know we NEVER talk on the phone but I would like to think that we are friends. You have given me very much good advice and wisdom on silly things. You have brought many smiles to my face and I will never stop smiling from the day I read something about you shitting rainbows. Next, I don't know what is going on with you and your husband but some differences are just part of life. You get upset with each other. You get mad, pull his leg hairs just because it makes you feel better and you make it work. You have a life and it's called kids and a husband. I know this because I have felt like you have before. I have gotten upset with myself because I have no money that I made, I have felt like shit and a non-contributor. I have thrown my fit and then I opened my eyes and realised. I am a stay at home mom with three kids. I am my husbands therapist and *toy*. I am my kids maid and doctor (on the small things) but I chose this life and I do love it. Yes, you are a normal woman you will feel like crap about things, but you have done a hell of a lot in your young 28 years. After my pity party and sadness I call a friend (you can call me) and we just talk. We talk about what ever. It might be my little boy peeing on the floor or me being stopped up because I have not had enough coffee (TMI, I know) but just talking helps. I am older then you so I know what I am talking about even if it's just by one year. LOL. Smile, you are beautiful, young, and have a whole hell of a lot of life in front of you. Heck, I can't spell worth crap, my grammar is horrid, I am a slow reader and my whole life I have never been told I was good at anything (until I met Chris) and guess what. I have a dream of writing a book. Maybe one day my story will be done and made into a book. Until then I will live my life. Loving life and the crazy things that piss me off. It might be my husband,kids or my weight. It might be the person who just pulled out in front of me and is now going slow or the damn dead mole my cat just left for me, but if I dwell on it, it's not going to get better. This is your life and it's pretty darn beautiful if you think about it. Terri, I think you are great. You are a wonderful mom and have a great heart. Just please DON'T forget. You are young, beautiful and have MANY years ahead of you. Try not to stress and have some hot tea.
Much LOVES
Hayley
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