Girl Scout Camp Post 1

I labled this post 1 because once we get my daughters camera done and some pics scanned i will tell you more about her trip.
This photo is one i took, the only one i took. Once we got to her cabin i had this image of taking all these pictures and saying a hefty goodbye. BUT she was so over whelemed and taken back that my goodbye went in one of her ears and i saw it fly out the other. lol! So i took my "walking away" picture. Such a small cabin, creepy too. As i was driving off my mind kept going back to horror movies and Crystal Lake and Mike Myers. lmao! Well tonight is the second and final night. No phone calls which means she is safe, asleep and NOT home sick. Damn them for their fun! lol!
She is just getting so big. Now her little brother on the other hand he is a complete emotional mess. He is torn in two about her not being around. This for me is great reassurance that he needs preschool this year. He needs to learn to seperate him self from her and socialize with other children his age. I think he has managed to ask me pretty close to once an hour when we were going to go get Brenna. Yesterday before bed it caused tears, this morning it caused tears and after lunch it caused tears. Tonight before bed and before story time it caused tears and some stiff words "Brenna needs to be in her own bed now!" he said this a few times, i held him, told him it was ok to be sad and miss her and to cry. Poor poor baby.
I really thought i might be a mess too. But with how suffocated i was as a child, thanks mom! I decided early on that i would always remember the parent bond as temporary and that my kids will not be with me forever. So for me it is sad to see that she is growing up faster than i thought, and she for sure isnt dependant on me and is comfortable with being in a social setting. All of these things were very important to me as a mom for my kids to have. I am still working on my own social issues and my own dependancy issues on my mom. ha ha ha Any how but really i just feel out of balance. As today went on it seemed to get Brenna and more than any thing i noticed more about my son. As much as him and Brenna are very much a like when they are alone their personalities are very different. Brenna would sit down and color and draw with me for hours, i could read her a book or sit and watch a movie with her. Not my son, this man is busy. He wanted to fight, he said i was the bad guy and he was spider man and he wanted to punch me, then he wanted to play dog and four wheeler, then he bounced on the trampoline, then he wanted to build a tent but of course i didnt make it big enough. Finally i talked him into making a blue pineapple upside down cake. That bought us a good half hour of time.
Well through all of this. I can say i know my son better and i know my daughter better too. I am more confident in my parenting abilities because as of yet my kids are on the track i want them to be on, and above all i learned that it is not ever a good idea once you have more than one kid to be reminded of what it is like with only one. It will make you pound her head into a wall for your decision of having more than one. ha ha ha