My Hair

I have to remind myself our hair is just an accessory....
In the year 2001 i decided to put a brave face on and let some one a dear friend of mine who went to beauty school die my hair then perm it all with in one night. What an idiot. I stayed awake all night and at 730am i was getting my hair all cut off like a horrid boy cut because it was so matted and damaged you couldnt even comb through it. It still makes me want to cry today to think about that night. Well years later i never cut my hair again or let any one else do any thing to it. I grew my hair out for seven years and two pregnancies. lol! Then last March i got another wild hair up my wahooola and cut it all off again. My hair was near my waste line and i got the back shaved and the front cut into a long aline. Super cute very much like Posh Spice or Rhianna. It took some time to get use to but once again i was very sad that i had done this to my self. But, that time it was about change and not hiding behind my hair any more. Taking risks and knowing that it will be ok. Well i started the track of growing my hair out again. Grrr! and that takes forever you know. GOSH! Well here i am hot, feeling very unattractive and needing some thing to make perk me up. So what do i go and do, cut it all off again. ha ha ha I got a similar cut as last March. This time the hairdresser and i were having a hard time communicating what i wanted and what she was understanding. I was frustrated but hopeful so i just told her to just do it and she did. lol! The back is not the bob look i wanted but a super messy short spiky look that i love, the front long like i wanted but one side is purposely longer by a lot than the other going for a more punky young feel (her idea not mine) and there is not a line to it at all. lol! Some how and some way i really love it. Short hair might be my thing these days, i just hate that in between hair stage. Really though is it in between? Now with short hair i have to fix my hair every day, but my in between stage i could put it up or leave it down and it was ok, and when its long its just left down or half up - how boring. I am going to enjoy this short hair. I feel more sophisticated with it, more alive, spicy and i feel like it really brings out my personality. I however am not a fan of not having long hair to hide behind, so my butt looks super huge. So after this baby comes out, i gotta deflate the rear end of my train. ha ha ha.